to anyone still out there. it has been over a year since i was last on... i forgot how this works. maybe i will start doing some journaling to clear my head. things seemed to be clearer when i had a xanga. then myspace came along. i met a guy who in the past year i have fallen in and out of love with. i still love him but he isn't right for me. we're friends but i guess its complicated. it always is right? i graduated from college and am praying for this job as a one year old teacher in starkville. i really hope this comes through. i need to be settled down in my own place in my own town so bad right now. i need a little break from planning my sisters wedding. i got the ball rolling again so maybe she can take it from here. two weeks from today i'll be on the island of holden beach. it's been eleven years since i've been and i can't wait to go back. so much has changed in that amount of time. maybe it'll be a new start! thats what i'm hoping. i have a lot on my mind this week. what seems like my only friend in the world will be out of pocket for the next week and thats just the person i need the most right now. i feel like i've done a real shitty job with things this summer. its probably been the worst summer ever! sad, since its supposed to be a time of celebration. wish i had the money to do that. anyway. my head hurts and i'm probably heading on to bed soon but i'll be back. i miss the freedom of the keyboard. and i might go back and read some old blogs and see how much i've grown and accomplished since then. have a great july everyone. i'm back. anna p.s. where is the mood thing??? i liked that | 
